So after a year and a half of being a single mother all over again my husband is returning from Iraq next week... He's been a total jerk 90% of the time he's been gone, but this last month since we found out he was coming home he is acting like the man i married but i am scared to death its just a ploy to keep me from leaving... We were having problems for awhile and i got tired of it... I let him convince me to wait til the deployment was over to file for divorce then he offered to stay with me while i finished school so that my little girl and i would health insurance he admitted that was just him hoping if i stayed with him while i finished school he could convince me to stay... He is acting like the man i fell in love with but i'm afraid dr.jekyl will be overrun by mr.hyde and the man i loved will turn into this thing that i can't stand and if he is going to act the way he has most of the time he's been gone in the coming deployments thats not fair to me i shouldnt have to worry about speaking my mind or telling my husband something for fear it will cause a horrid fight... I'm totally torn right now I have no idea what to do my little girl loves him i was a single mom before i met him and he has all but adopted her she thinks he is daddy she told me today he is her prince charming that she wanted daddy to take her to the ball... yea i know my 3 year old said that... but my friends and family think i'm being stupid that im just scared bc i dont want to be a single mom again that i am staying with him bc of bella and that hes going to do something to hurt me... or that he has completely beaten me down to the point that i cant decide anything on my own bc of him... it really hurts to know thats the way they think... any advice? anyone?

One day, you'll ask me to speak of a truth- of the miracle of your birth. To explain what is unexplained. And if i falter or fail on this day, know there is an answer, my child, a sacred imperishable truth, but one you may never hope to find alone. Chance meeting your perfect other, your perfect opposite- your protector and endangerer. Chance embarking with this other on the greatest of journeys- a search for truths fugitive and imponderable. If one day this chance may befall you, my child, do not fail or falter to seize it. The truths are out there. And if one day you should behold a miracle, as i have in you, you will learn the truth is not found in science, or on some unseen plane, but by looking into your own heart. And in that moment you will be blessed- and stricken. For the truest truths, are what holds us together, or keep us painfully, desperately apart.